Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Trouble on my end. TMI warning


Hi All
Things aren't going well on this end. last week I filed for bankruptcy, and remember all the memory issues I told you about? ( can't remember if I did or not.) I finally got a solid diagnosis from a good Psychiatrist that I have ADD, Slow Cognitive Tempo type. I've been suspicious of this for a while but it's an easy thing to explain away as some kind of lack of character on my part. Nice to know that it isn't my fault. But at 54 you can imagine that I do have a  crushing sense of loss of what might have been.
So now we're adjusting my meds from the kind that treat Major suicidal depression to the kind that more directly treat ADD.( Ritalin or Adderal, in other words. ) I'm likely going to go through a period of side effects that should soon wear off. Right now for instance I'm on antianxiety meds that leave me real foggy headed and unsteady on my feet. I didn't get the kind that gives you a four hour erection, dammit!

As far as I can tell, it's mostly a chemical imbalance I've had all my life that until now has been undiagnosed. Diagnosing it improves the recovery out look to  100%. After we figure out what works in terms of medication and I find a coach that specializes in this stuffl I'm confident that I'll be back full blast.

In the last year my working speed has slowed a lot and I'm interrupted a lot with the need to sleep. I may have to suspend all my commissions for the time being at least until my head clears. Give me a week on that. The side effects I have may start to clear up by then, especially when I start on the stimulants.
This week looks like it's going to be another wash on SSSC. If you can see your way to hanging in with me, I'd appeciate it.   If not, I totally understand. I wll be posting things as much as I can, but very irregularly, Id' say for the next month or so.


Keep sending thepictures and ides. They cheer me up.
S

6 comments:

  1. You don't get away that easy! I'm staying in...

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    1. Rats! And I thought this would do it!

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  2. Glad to hear you're improving. Better to find out these things late in life than never.

    Brushes are on the way soon. (I hope.)

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    1. Yay!
      Yeah, it at least gives me a word to put on what's been 'off' or 'interesting' about me all my life.

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  3. Sorry to hear about your troubles, Slid, but it does sound like there are better days ahead once you and your doctor figure out the right cocktail of pills. ;)

    In the meantime, take it easy and get some rest so you can come back stronger (and kinkier) than ever.

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  4. Ow, the bankruptcy part hits me the most sucks to hear, I've heard plenty of testimonials to how much of an ordeal it is. The health issue sounds like it's going to be getting much better or I'd put that as my top on ho of your post. But regardless I hope all goes well.

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